Emotions and the lack of energy to care....

Today has been a really hard day. I slept like crap last night, and did nothing all day today with the exception of cook some hamburger (ground turkey) for tacos. pretty much the same story yesterday. and the same tomorrow. It probobly sounds like I was being sarchastic when i said its been a hard day. I'm not. I have 0 energy. but can't sleep because I can't get comfertable. I want to lay on the bed with my eyes closed all day. But poor lily has energy, and lots of it, and she wants to play. Roxy and summer and mandie did a good job of playing with her for a few hours today. Those kids are so darn cute! for some reason I feel sort of sad, sort discuraged, sort of angry, and completly exausted! Too tired to do something about it, like cry or yell. I need to clean up dinner start the dishwasher, pick up the front room, fold and put away the laundry. that last one has to get done befor i can go to bed because my bed is underneath it all. If I were rich I would pay some one who needed a job to clean my house. tomorrow is my appointment. I don't even have the energy to be excited about that. I better go get started on that bed, so I can attempt to sleep.