Sily Lily!

we are sitting at the table eating dinner and Lily decides she wants to sing....At the top of her lungs. it was cute so I let it go one for a few seconds. then that was not good enough. she had to have Daddy sing with her. only problem was she was making up the song herself. It said something about daddy mommy lily kelle, and a few leters in there too, and then she has this little fake cat that you put in water and it grows, and she mentioned that too. Needless to say Devin was not able to get the words right let alone her tune that she was making up. but it was really funny. So a few minutes later I had to get her to stop screaming, I mean singing her head off, so this is how it went....

Mommy: "I will tell you a story if you stop singing.
Once upon a time, in a land far away there was a little girl. She was SO cute..... and she.....what did she do lily?"
Lily: "a child of God teach to pray all day."
Mommy; "awesome! ok."
It was so cute. there was no relevence what so ever, but she said it without a bit of hesitation. like that was the answere. It was so funny.

She also has been putting "all day" on teh end of what ever it is she is talking about. like..."good morning mommy, I wake up ALL day!" (yesterday when she woke up from her nap.)

lets see, what is on my mind.

I have had NO desire to blog. and even now it feels forced. But i want to have desire to do it. I always feels better when i write my feelings. I think part of the reason I don't want to write is because no one ever comments but a few people in my family who I should talk to aout this stuff, so then i would not need a blog. Devin Deleted his for that reason, and I toy with the idea myself. but there arethings on this blog I want to keep so I don't delete it. The thing is thats how I live my life. holding onto crap that I want to keep just incase i want to read that talk later or I might need that piece of papy for something, sometime. but I never do, and it just clutters my house and makes me want to go in another room that is more organised and not full of crap. I really wish I could be one of those people who has nothing laying out, in piles or stored in the junk draw, junk box etc. I feel so happy and clean and like I can move with ease in houses like that. I am too lazy to do that and I know I would not be able to keep it up, so it wouldlast for a week at most and then die. like my blog.
I really miss the sun! Sun sun Mr golden sun, please shine down on me, and everyone else in my house. we need lots of days with sun and time to play outside, but we also need a better out door play area. I think when it gets warm we are going to start taking hikes in the wild and go exploring. I am hust not sure where we can do that. I hate that Lily loves TV so much. but I don't know how to play outside in the city. I need trees to climb and hills and growth to "get lost in" and build my own little house (a blanket under a bush with my doll and some food from the garden). I need streams and caves and mud, you know the great out doors. I am sure it exists. just no where I go. and I don't mean a park. NOT the same. City dirt is so much dirtier then country dirt. I really want lily to love the out doors and know how to play safe in it. Any one know a good free out doors place to explore. I miss the trails in Burnaby Canada. I wish we could go there.
I also Miss British Columbia So bad!