I have been feeling really......misfit for the most part latly. I need a best friend. one who is not family. As dear to me as my sisters are (and I love that they are my friends), I want someone to have things in common with that did not grow up in the same house as me. Someone who will not look down at my scrounginess, a person who can relate to how I grew up, and understand who I am now because of it. Someone to learn from and with. Someone who's kids are not perfect so when we play together I am not self contoise about the fact that my kids are the only ones not siting there still as can be eatign their lunch quietly. I love those kids and I wish mine were like that but they are not and I can't make them be. and everytime I am around those type of kids I cannot enjoy myself because I feel bad. I know that what you see is not the whole picture. Any way, for w while now I have just wanted a friend who gets me. I can make friends by being friendly easily. but what I want is someone who I really feel a connection with. Another problem I often have is I meet someone who I fit with easily and we connect and then I don't know what to do after that. One of my major goals for this year was to make and keep a friend. When my sister lost her best friend, and i started to learn more about their relationship, it really made me want something like that. It has been years since I have had a close friend who is not related to me. maybe I have isolated myself with my sisters. I thought i made a best friend while serving my mission, but it turns out it was more one of those connections that stayed on the mission. So when we came back we basicly went our seprate ways. before that I would say a few roomates fit the catagory, but they all got married and it has been hard to maintian those relationships now.Either I have kids and they don't or our husbands don't mix or they moved far away, or something. My absolute best friends have actually been 2 guys. And those relationships eventually became different (because I got married) or ended for other reasons. I know that often people come into our lives when they are needed and then they go out of our lives when we move on. I get that. but where is that person for the stage I am in now? Ultimatly Devin is my best friend. But I feel like I need a woman friend......that is not three years old. I might have found one. but what do I do now? And what if she is not looking for a new best friend. It all sounds so Jr High-ish. But those are my real feelings.