ahh the many things that clutter my mind.

I have been absent from my blogging for a long time. I think like what a month? well the whole sergury thing got me down and then you have recovery and then you have a two year old and a baby and a house and a husbend who's been doing the jobs of both of us for about 8 weeks, and church and then you find in there some how, time to bless the baby and feed 70 people, and then your just plain old tired. and at that point blogging wuld be really nice to do because it would mean I had a minute to my self, but when that minute comes so does exaustion and then hopefuly some sleep. but I have healed mostly now, the blessing when really well, and was so beautiful I really felt the spirit that day and had been needing to so badly. Mikelle was just beautiful in her dress that mandie made for her. and dispite how much she disagrees, she is SO talented! well mikelle is waking up from her nap, and right on que lily started crying and is now waking up. and devin is not waking up so I have to end this. I had really hoped to get some stuff that had been on my mind out. but oh well. for now this will be it.

Its been a while... I have some thoughts to share.

I have not been posting or really checking e mails or anything for a while. Lack of sleep is to blame. But that is not what I want to post about because today I am trying to be possitive and active, I think if I am I will get more done, and I will feel better. I was talking with a friend and she was saying she feels like she does not belong. All her friends are married and have about two kids, she is in a relationship going on five years, that most likely wont progress to marriage. And she wants to get married and have kids, and do the things others her age are doing. I was tinking about the whole age thing. It seems strange to me that people my age are so worried about getting married and having kids soon because they feel like they are getting old. I'll only be 27 this year. but what I realized was no matter if it haapens at 25 or 35, once you get married there will still be challanges to over come and things you want. like children, and once you have children there will still be cfhallanges and things to over come, like getting a house. and once you do that another or maybe its other things for other people, like a job or an education or those same things but for your children. there will always be progress to be made and things to work towards. there is no end all. we have to continue to work (on achieving goals) all the days of our lives. I know its esey for me to say because I got an education, went on a mission, I got married, I have a house and I have two children(and when I say that it sounds like I have been so busy, and I have done a lot.) But that does not mean there are not other things that I want to do. I want to eventually work again, do massage part time. I want to go back to school. I want my husbend to get an education, I want to learn spanish, serve another mission, and do so many more things. So its not like I have everything, and now there is nothing more for me to do. I think a lot of my friends my age who are single think that. But its not true, we are just working on different things.

Lily plants one on Dad!

you have to click on the image o view the whole thing.

They are growing so fast!

Mikelle is two weeks and lily is 21 months!

thought thise was cute.....

"You never know what a girl is worth,
You’ll have to wait and see;
But every woman in a noble place,
A girl once used to be."
President Monson paraphrased it in his talk to the Sisters in october 2007. not sure of its origional auther or if there is more.

Sleep deprivation...

Amy hit it dead on when she described it as being "so tired it hurts!". I see why the military would use sleep deprivation to break a person down. You can get so tired that you can not hold back any longer. I got 6 hours of sleep in a row last night! And trust me. I needed it so bad! Then my loving husbend, took the morning off to stay home and let me sleep in till 10. so I actually in total got 8 1/2 hours. It was soo nice. I still need about another three nights of that much or more, but this was SO needed. Thank you thank you thank you, Devin!

Ready for spring!

Yesterday Lily and I went out side to play for the first time in weeks! It was so nice. the sun was shinning in full force and the snow was melting. It was so fun! we ran up and down the side walk, and she played with her car. It made me long for spring SO bad! Oh I had so much fun actually being able to catch up to her and move freely. She loved being out side too! She saw a cat and was so happy chasing it down the side walk. Unfortunatly for me and fortunatly for everyone else, spring is a long way away. we have three storms alone coming this week that will bring valley snow. and then probobly another 2 - 3 months of freezing temps/snow every few days befor it really turns to spring and does not go back. But I was so glad for yesterdays sun shine. I have a hard time with this time of year. about the end of december to the end of march or beginning of april (because you never know when winter will finaly be gone in Utah. It has snowed in May. And I seem to recal it snowed in June once when i was in high school. But it can be summer temps in march and april too. so you never know. Any who. I can't wait for it when ever it happens to be spring again!