Its been a while... I have some thoughts to share.

I have not been posting or really checking e mails or anything for a while. Lack of sleep is to blame. But that is not what I want to post about because today I am trying to be possitive and active, I think if I am I will get more done, and I will feel better. I was talking with a friend and she was saying she feels like she does not belong. All her friends are married and have about two kids, she is in a relationship going on five years, that most likely wont progress to marriage. And she wants to get married and have kids, and do the things others her age are doing. I was tinking about the whole age thing. It seems strange to me that people my age are so worried about getting married and having kids soon because they feel like they are getting old. I'll only be 27 this year. but what I realized was no matter if it haapens at 25 or 35, once you get married there will still be challanges to over come and things you want. like children, and once you have children there will still be cfhallanges and things to over come, like getting a house. and once you do that another or maybe its other things for other people, like a job or an education or those same things but for your children. there will always be progress to be made and things to work towards. there is no end all. we have to continue to work (on achieving goals) all the days of our lives. I know its esey for me to say because I got an education, went on a mission, I got married, I have a house and I have two children(and when I say that it sounds like I have been so busy, and I have done a lot.) But that does not mean there are not other things that I want to do. I want to eventually work again, do massage part time. I want to go back to school. I want my husbend to get an education, I want to learn spanish, serve another mission, and do so many more things. So its not like I have everything, and now there is nothing more for me to do. I think a lot of my friends my age who are single think that. But its not true, we are just working on different things.