ramblings of Tali's quiet time.....

life.....
I have been gardening. well at my house it is actually just pulling weeds and grass front he huge flower bed out front It was covered in two foot long grass. I started last week or the week before right after we had a few days in a row of rain, it was easy...well the weeds came out easy, it is not easy how ever on my back arms or hands (I do wear gloves) and it is any but easy to do that task while keeping track of my two children and continuously stopping kelle from running in the street. I am now about two thirds of the way done. it is a lot of work with very little of any reward. No one is going to thank me, when it is all done you wont have any idea how much was there to see that it was a huge job, and.....it will all grow back again. and don't forget the 100 year old roses that also live in that flower bed. those Lady's are mean! I surprised at my fear of the Little creatures that might be living in the dirt. I grew up with those little creatures. but it has been so many years since I have spent allot of time in the dirt that i guess I gained a fear of it. at first I was so afraid I would meet a spider, or a snake. the grass is just like the grass I use to play in, that was a common place for rattle snakes, garden snakes and bull snakes to hide. Or if i would find black widows or some other huge ugly spider.and with each hand full of weeds that came out I wondered if it would be my dreaded last. because if i did see one of those things, or some other creepy crawly thing. I know I would most likely not be hurt, but would leave the area at once, never to return. and the job would not get finished. but I have found that the more I do it, the less i fear, till i am right down there in the dirt with the creepy crawlies in sight, and then all at once i remember my fear, or at least wonder about that last fated handful, that could be right around the corner. so i stop, clean up my mess and go inside. but, i am happy to say that i keep going back, later either that evening or the next day. If I did not it would not get done. and slowly but surely it is.
In other garden news, My sister Halley and I have started a garden.. we made rows, tilled the soil, mulched it with fertilized soil and planted, tomatoes (two kinds of cherry, and one big boy) cucumbers, squash, zukkini, basil and cilantro. we used starts that My sister Amy planted from seed. Our garden is at Halleys house, in hopes that since we are sharing it, it will get the care it needs, our kids can play together while we work (or fight if you know our kids) and we will enjoy the fruit of our labors together too. we shall see. it is both of our first garden. My girls have given me a few good moments while we have been out side working in the garden. Kelle LOVES the dirt. and Lily loves to play out side and sing to her self but ideally loves to play with the neighbors if they are out. I few times I have caught her sneaking off while I have my back turned, to go see if they can play. she is such a social girl. and every man that looks older then me that walks by they start creaming grandpa or papa and want then to stop and play. I feel so bad for these strangers because many are not much older then me. I showed Lily the Roley poly bugs, you know the ones that roll up into a ball. well she loves them. she keeps telling me "mommy, find me a Poly poly, please!" I love to hear her say it. It is so stinking cute!
I am so happy that may is finally here. May and October are my favorite Utah months. its perfect weather, the world still looks pretty and colorful, and people are out and about. oh and its not to hot for living. come June and it will officially be too hot for living. That is my way of saying it is so hot I wish I were dead. I hate the heat. It makes me grumpy and tired ,head achy and anti social, because I stay inside to avoid it.
All this work that is not the typical house work,has made me almost miss working. I just miss the variety of tasks. And the growth I experienced. I also miss earning money. well gardening is hard work and I wish I could get paid to pull my weeds. Now that would be so worth it. Speaking of money I need some. I need to either do more massage, and or get some work I can do at home with my girls. Like child care. So if anyone knows of someone close to the down town area who has one or two young kids they would like to pay someone to play with. send them my way. They can come play in the dirt with us.
On another note, Lily will have a birthday this month and I think we are just going to do a small family thing. like just our family and let her invite three cousins or friends over to play. other people do huge things every year and I just can't do it. one, I don't want her to expect it, two, can;t afford it, and three, it is so much work on my part and she wont even remember it. but cannot believe she is growing up So fast. she is officially potty trained. like she has been dry all night for like three weeks. and she had one accident in the past two weeks. It happened so fast. I am really proud of her. but she has recently taken a turn for the worse in the bed time and sleeping department. If she does not have a nap she is a mess all day and nothing an stop it but sleep. but that sleep is at 4pm, and if she sleeps then, she will be up till 2 am. and I can't deal with her screaming and crying, and hitting a spitting all day. So i give her a nap, but she wont go to sleep. she will fight it for hours, till its too late and if she goes to sleep then she will be up till 12am. it is very frustrating to me. Made worse by the fact that kelle is opposite, and she will pull me into her room and say reach as she is reaching for her crib, because she wants to take a nap. then i lay her down and walk away and she is asleep before I close the door. and she sleeps through the night.lily still does not. It is driving me crazy! Mikelle is growing up so fast too. she talks really well. and she has the funniest little teasing personality. she loves to give real big hugs. where she will wrap her arms all the way around my neck and squeeze. and hold it for a second. they are the best! i love to watch her and lily play. Lily is really into pretending right now. So she loves to pretend that she is a dog, or that kelle is her dog, and she will walk her and give doggy kisses (lick your face) and pant and bark. and kelle just goes along with it, witch ever one she is assigned to play, weather its the dog or the owner. Lily is a very strict dog owner. she is always telling her dog to "sit", "stay" "come here", "lay down" she even says it in her best commanding voice. they both loves small to medium size dogs. kelle will go crazy if she See's a "puppy". and she does not know why they run from her. they both are really afraid of bigger dogs or hyper dogs. well I have wasted my share of time quiet time. girlie's are waken. It is off to work I go. If you actually finished reading this, your a good person. it is long and rambled. and you will be an even better person if you help me find some work I can do for money from home. See ya later all! oh and check back for pictures, they are coming soon.