I have had NO desire to blog. and even now it feels forced. But i want to have desire to do it. I always feels better when i write my feelings. I think part of the reason I don't want to write is because no one ever comments but a few people in my family who I should talk to aout this stuff, so then i would not need a blog. Devin Deleted his for that reason, and I toy with the idea myself. but there arethings on this blog I want to keep so I don't delete it. The thing is thats how I live my life. holding onto crap that I want to keep just incase i want to read that talk later or I might need that piece of papy for something, sometime. but I never do, and it just clutters my house and makes me want to go in another room that is more organised and not full of crap. I really wish I could be one of those people who has nothing laying out, in piles or stored in the junk draw, junk box etc. I feel so happy and clean and like I can move with ease in houses like that. I am too lazy to do that and I know I would not be able to keep it up, so it wouldlast for a week at most and then die. like my blog.
I really miss the sun! Sun sun Mr golden sun, please shine down on me, and everyone else in my house. we need lots of days with sun and time to play outside, but we also need a better out door play area. I think when it gets warm we are going to start taking hikes in the wild and go exploring. I am hust not sure where we can do that. I hate that Lily loves TV so much. but I don't know how to play outside in the city. I need trees to climb and hills and growth to "get lost in" and build my own little house (a blanket under a bush with my doll and some food from the garden). I need streams and caves and mud, you know the great out doors. I am sure it exists. just no where I go. and I don't mean a park. NOT the same. City dirt is so much dirtier then country dirt. I really want lily to love the out doors and know how to play safe in it. Any one know a good free out doors place to explore. I miss the trails in Burnaby Canada. I wish we could go there.
I also Miss British Columbia So bad!
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Okay, just so you know. I didn't even know you had a blog until a couple of weeks ago. Otherwise I would have been commenting a whole bunch.
But really, this blog is for you. If nothing else but to get things off your chest and out there. It feels sooo good.
No one has a home that is perfect and if their house looks "perfect" it's NOT a "home." A HOME is a place that is lived in and well loved by everyone. Usually that means the children express their love and comfort by putting everything EVERYWHERE. You are blessed to have a HOME.
I have a pass to go up Millcreek canyon. So if it was you, me and the kids then it wouldn't cost anything. (cause we are all in the same car) Or you can go FREE up Big and Little Cottonwood Canyons. I have a hiking book that covers all hikes in Utah. And so we can plan which one to go on. I went all the time last year. We just have to go.
Call me and we will go.
Don't give up on the blog. Not yet. Love you
Oh, and come see my blog. sandmhartley.blogspot.com
(This is Thora)
I'm feeling the same way - I want to blog, but then I open up a screen to post, and I never write any words down (ok, so I know I write all the time, relatively, but I just mean for the last few days).
I struggle with no where to really go and play. I want my kids to be able to play outside by themselves (well, in a few years) and have adventures and stuff, but living in a townhouse apartment? Not so great for that. My hope is to someday live really close to a large park, that has something that at least feels pretend wild, they can play in. I know, it's a long shot, but I can dream.
(As far as keeping what's on your blog, if you just save what you've written to your computer, then you could delete your blog. But actually I don't want you to delete your blog - since I don't live near you, and I'm bad at calling people, your blog lets me know what's up in your mind. I like it. I like you.)
My back yard is pretty wild. Not very big though, and often contains dog poo, so probably not what you had in mind. I'd love to go up to the canyons with you this summer, and play in the real outdoors. I also want to go out to Salt Aire and play, because it's beautiful and different, despite the smell.
And please don't delete your blog. I didn't know Devin did, because I just have him in my Google reader.
I DO read... don't often comment but that doesn't mean I do not appreciate reading what you share.
Not sure about the playing outside in town problems... When we lived in town, that was what the back yard was for... but of course it's not as big nor as wild as the great outdoors in the canyon!
Even though we talk, I like to read your blog. Eventually, I hope to make my back yard more of an outdoor adventure place but it is slow coming and will never compare to something like the canyon. It's really hard to have something comparable to that if you do not in fact live in such a place. I mourn it too.
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